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Tiffany Chu's avatar

Thank you for such an honest and vulnerable story. I'm raising a son with ADHD, and he also has the hyperfocus, along with hyperactivity. It was challenging until he got diagnosed just a few months ago, and while it's still challenging, knowing that it's not his fault has helped a lot. We're still navigating and finding ways to support him better, but your story gives me hope.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Tiffany. Sending all best wishes as you navigate!

Rohini Singh's avatar

For a person with late diagnosed ADHD, this was such a hard but moving read. Somewhere I felt guilty about the frustration I must have caused my loved ones, especially my mother. She also passed away from cancer and I was her primary caregiver. There is so much to relate in this piece and I share this pain in strange ways but also I feel grateful that I had someone who loved me so sincerely. I am sure the writer does too. Thank you for being vulnerable enough for sharing this story. It is moving, painful, powerful and hopeful at the same time.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Rohini. I am sorry for the loss of your mother. To have that kind of love really is a gift.

Pat Taylor's avatar

Lori - I finally found some time to read this post. To get to know more of your story makes me admire you even more than I had already.

Having two grandsons and a son-in-law who live with ADHD, I thank you for putting a realistic and compassionate view of how ADHD individuals and their families struggle, yet can still find a way to move through this world together with understanding and success.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Pat. Much love!

Andrea Tate / I'll Show You's avatar

Thank you for this lovely heartfelt piece. I have family members with ADHD. I witness the challenges they endure daily when people don’t understand how their brains work—brilliant and brave. We are fortunate that there is so much ADHD awareness today and it’s no longer thought of as a negative. It truly is a superpower.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Andrea! I agree!

Lisa Cottrell's avatar

Thank you for sharing this—a loving tribute to your husband and marriage with all its imperfections.

Jocelyn Jane Cox's avatar

Beautiful and painful Lori 💛

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Jocelyn.

Anthony DiPietro's avatar

I too recognized aspects of my relationship in this. Your way of telling it is compassionate, relatable, vulnerable, and ultimately heartbreaking — I held back tears to get through it. Thank you for sharing this story.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Anthony. There's not much greater a gift to an essayist than feedback like this. Greatly appreciated.

Natasha's avatar

I recognized my own relationships in your piece. Thank you for writing it.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Natasha. I'm glad this was relatable.

Rachel Malcolm's avatar

Thank you for this. I was also married to a neurodivergent man and a lot of what you experienced resonates deeply (in our case, the relationship did not survive - I have no idea if it would have been different if he had been diagnosed and we understood each other better). It is rare to read this perspective - to feel validated in the deep loneliness and frustration and sadness - thank you.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Rachel. I'm so glad this piece resonated. I so appreciate your note.

Wendy Brown-Baez's avatar

Beautifully written, heartbreaking and honest. My partner was bipolar, so this resonates about the differences in what were important to me and important to him, and I have grandsons "on the spectrum"... I especially felt the toll of caregiving and the loss when you might have had more tools to cope for both of you. My heartfelt condolences.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Wendy.

Vincent O'Keefe's avatar

This is a powerful essay. Your exploration of caregiving and neurodivergence is poignant but also very informative. Very sorry to hear of the heartbreak but so glad your son has benefitted from greater understanding.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Vincent.

Maureen C. Berry's avatar

What a beautiful and heartbreaking story, Lori. Much love to you. xo

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thanks, Maureen. Right back to you! <3

Pia Vivo's avatar

It's a very moving piece that helped me to reflect on undiagnosed neurodivergence my own family (but I won't bore you with the details... ; ) )

Danusia Malina-Derben's avatar

What a glorious piece. Thank you Lori does not cover my gratitude. Biggest of hugs. And much admiration.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Danusia. Sending hugs back to you!

Sarah Leibov's avatar

This is a beautiful essay. Lori, and I can see from the comments how much your words are resonating with readers. I’m sorry you didn’t have more time with your husband.

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Sarah.

The Ageing Creative's avatar

What a lovely essay. I also have a son with ADHD and husband who shares many of the same traits. I can relate so much to the push/pull between love, admiration, frustration, and resentment. I’m sorry you didn’t have more time. It sounds like you were both committed to working it out and finding the (ever precarious) balance. You both sound great!

P.S. I read Murakami’s book last summer and loved it too!

Lori Tucker-Sullivan's avatar

Thank you, Justine.