Thank you so much for so bravely sharing this! All hugs to you.
Good for you all the way for exercising wise judgment in the end. You wouldn’t have been expected to recognize that at that age but your teacher was actually trying to groom you when he asked you to mix that CD for him and by going out of his way to ask about your favorite bands the way he did. From what you indicate, he wasn’t doing that with anyone else. At least not while he was your teacher.
Your later online search would be quite a normal response to your situation. It would be natural to wonder if he did the same or worse to others. Not that that’s unfounded, either, as offending pedos, unfortunately, tend to have at least 50-100’s of victims before they’re arrested. (I learned that stat in my child abuse and maltreatment class in college) and often go out of their way to work in or volunteer at jobs where they’ll have easy access to kids.
But more than hoping to find a legal record, I think that was also, deep down on your part, an attempt to find closure and peace of mind. Though the good news is that the latter starts from connecting within.
What a wise young women you were. I wish I had been.
Thank you so much for so bravely sharing this! All hugs to you.
Good for you all the way for exercising wise judgment in the end. You wouldn’t have been expected to recognize that at that age but your teacher was actually trying to groom you when he asked you to mix that CD for him and by going out of his way to ask about your favorite bands the way he did. From what you indicate, he wasn’t doing that with anyone else. At least not while he was your teacher.
Your later online search would be quite a normal response to your situation. It would be natural to wonder if he did the same or worse to others. Not that that’s unfounded, either, as offending pedos, unfortunately, tend to have at least 50-100’s of victims before they’re arrested. (I learned that stat in my child abuse and maltreatment class in college) and often go out of their way to work in or volunteer at jobs where they’ll have easy access to kids.
But more than hoping to find a legal record, I think that was also, deep down on your part, an attempt to find closure and peace of mind. Though the good news is that the latter starts from connecting within.
I love the way you tell this story - the tension is built and held so well!