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Sara Knight Bidlack's avatar

This is gold.

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ena ganguly's avatar

Thank you, Sara!

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Kathy Maas's avatar

A powerful peek into a painful world; I’m sorry you experienced that. You are a strong writer, and your words can help others find their way, as well. Thank you for sharing.

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ena ganguly's avatar

Thank you so much for taking the time to read this piece, Kathy.

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Diane's avatar

So many parts of this I could copy&share. Been there, got the t-shirt. Go you for being brave &sharing ❤️

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ena ganguly's avatar

Thank you Diane. It's good to know that no survivor is alone!

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Diane's avatar

Also want to thank you for how much remembering parts of your post helped me through an issue with my mum this weekend. X

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Open Secrets Magazine's avatar

We’re so glad to hear that, Diane. We hope our essays, while deeply personal and specific to the author, also resonate beyond their individual story.

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Roberta Gale's avatar

Good for you for figuring this out at such as young age! As an almost-70-year-old child of a narcissistic mother, what finally freed me was her death when I was 63. I have a better relationship with her now, and can appreciate her creative parts as well as her crazed parts. She and I get along better when we're in separate dimensions.

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ena ganguly's avatar

Uff, that last line!

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Nicole Scoggins's avatar

Thank you. Continued strength, growth, and healing as you re-engage.

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Noa Astons's avatar

you're so brave for sharing this

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Jazmine Becerra Green's avatar

Thank you for sharing your story. It’s so important to keep talking about CPTSD so others can see their own experiences in the stories of others. Your essay is so important.

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ena ganguly's avatar

Thank you so much for your encouragement, Jazmine.

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Marcia Abboud's avatar

Wow, Ena. Such an emotional piece of writing. You've articulated so well what it means to be raised by a narcissist. I'm sorry for all you've been through. Your vulnerability in sharing your story is so inspiring. Best of luck on your continued journey of healing. Your attitude is courageous. 🤍

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ena ganguly's avatar

Thank you so much, Marcia!

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Dorian Burden's avatar

How wise and at just 30! It took me till my to allow myself to feel my pain and begin let go if the thorns. You will both benefit. And you are in charge if you remember it.

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ena ganguly's avatar

Thank you Dorian, I so appreciate it!

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Riham Adly's avatar

You are very courageous. I'm 41 and I dare not contact her again. I cut her off two years ago. She was very to the version of your mother you describe. Now, she's a bipolar and borderline monster. I studied therapy and work in memoir just to try to get over it and help others, too.

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ena ganguly's avatar

I hear you. Lending yourself the time and space to bring words and attention to your experiences is all each of us can do. I wish you nothing but the best!

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Shalaka Damle's avatar

So beautifully written. Love this especially - "While all those things may be true, when I gave you opportunities time and time again to do better, you chose not to take them. I see now that no matter how much I undress my hurt, it will never be enough. It will only be an opportunity for the wound to be salted again."

Thank you for sharing!

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Katrina Donham's avatar

I relate to so much of this as a child of a narcissist. Thank you for writing this, ena! I feel seen.

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Leslie Senevey's avatar

Believe it or not, you are quite young to have come to the level of healing and awareness that you have. You have a very bright future ahead.

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ena ganguly's avatar

Thank you so much for your encouraging words, Leslie!

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Suzie Alexander's avatar

Your writing is raw, brave and heartfelt Ena. Thank you for sharing your story. So artfully written.

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Yamuna Flaherty's avatar

Powerful piece. I’ve been following your work on Instagram for awhile but I’m happy to see you here.

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ena ganguly's avatar

Thank you for your support and for taking the time to read my piece, Yamuna!

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Minh Ngoc Thi Dang's avatar

I relate to so much of this.brava to you!

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